There is a story in Exodus, where Moses and the Israelites have been taken out of Egypt and are wandering in some direction towards the Promised Land. Sheep, disciples and Israelites all are the ones with the reputation of memory trouble. They forget what God has done. Manna, breakfast of angels, has been provided to them every morning. They have been rescued from captivity. They have been given the presence of God and the presence of God. And it isn’t enough.
Moses is over it. I would be too. And yet I am totally a sheep, disciple, Israelite, most of the time. I forget, complain, wander. We most resent in others what we struggle with in our own selves.
Then there is a moment in the story where God pulls Moses aside and tells him that He will open up the way before him, that he can go into the promised land. That the promise will come quickly. That Moses will be fulfilled and arrive.
And then God says, you can have this promise, but I will not be with you.
Moses says no thank you. “No, thank you, God. If your presence is not with me, I want nothing to do with the promise yet. I will not go without you. If you stay I am staying here. If you go ahead I will go, but I do not want the promise early. I want you.”
Oh, how I want that to be my heart. At times it glimmers to be so, but there are so many times that I want the easy button. I want the hurry through the ache. I want the finish line. I want to arrive. The journey is too painful. It is treacherous and confusing. It is glorious and beautiful but those are the most vanishing evaporating fleeting vapors of the whole thing.
I know culture has taught me much of this. 2 second wait times. 3 second attention spans. Quicken this, speed up that, hurry and produce and arrive. But it seems to be a technological advancement of a human condition that spans to the ancient of times.
My flesh, my false self, my autonomous independent self-protecting self wants to blitz through the hard. I want to get to the promise.
But God is in the now. And I don’t want to miss Him. He invites me to find Him, “but what do you most long for? What do you want? I know you want the promise, but it is me you most desire. When you want easy, you really need my peace. When you want stimulation and adventure and excitement, you want my joy and Holy Spirit and larger story, the wild that comes from reckless surrender to me. When you want safety and buckle down in self-protection, what you most desire and was made for is complete trust in my arms that promise your good and my glory. You want me more.”
And He shows me how to remain in the now, in the hard and unfinished journey, with His presence as the prize after all. Not the promise or the finish line.
Sisters, I want to walk together on this journey. We were meant to. We were designed to do it together and invite each other further up and further in. This September there is a weekend away where God invites us to be with Him in the midst of the journey. In the midst of the storm, the battle, the wilderness, the unknown, the new, the in between, He invites you to re-orient back to Him for your own refreshment, your good, your rest and your healing.
I don’t want us to miss Him in what He is moving in right now. What He has been moving in your whole life. And what He is inviting you into. He has so much in store for you: so much healing, so many promises, so many abundant life blessings. But He wants to first show you His heart. He wants to give you Himself. He is the prize. He is beyond that good. He wants you to see Him with new eyes and a healed true self.
He has such good in store for you, whether or not you except this invitation, but this is an anointed weekend that you get so much of it at once. It is unlike any women event I have ever experienced. Cheesy and cliquey are no where even near this event. It is authentic, it is real, it is truly a time away with God. It is what you want it to be and yet God will invite you into all of the depths.
Will you consider this invitation? Will you ask Jesus if He has this for you this year? Ask Him to speak through the stirrings of your heart and pay attention to His prompting.
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I really hope you come with me. I could not be more thrilled for what God is going to do.
He promised. And we will not miss Him in the waiting.