A calm and peaceful and tranquil heart is life and health to the body.
Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart
And do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him,
And He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way].
Do not be wise in your own eyes;
Fear the Lord [with reverent awe and obedience] and turn [entirely] away from evil.
It will be health to your body [your marrow, your nerves, your sinews, your muscles—all your inner parts]
And refreshment (physical well-being) to your bones.
my last post was about the fact that i have accepted my chronic thyroid disease.
i have a new story.
a few weeks ago i was driving around and asked Jesus, “why why why am i still exhausted and in this place, when i eat well and exercise and sleep and take care… what is going on?”
and my heart heard “stale energy.”
and i had no idea what that meant. probably wouldve been a good idea to follow up on that, but i pictured this dark little sphere ball in my tummy that was stale energy. i thought it meant that i needed to use the energy that i do have and get going on things i love and things that are partnering with Him. i was really shooting in the dark.
well fast forward to Thursday, when i went to a naturopath doctor to see if there was anything else possibly going on that could be contributing to my chronic fatigue. she tested all of my organs to see if there were any that were abnormally stressed. nothing major signaled concern. i asked her if we could test food allergies too, because why not.
after finding out all this cool info, she turned to me and said, “you know, i have a recommendation for you that i dont suggest to most patients. but i know you know Jesus. i do something with Him that you might be interested in. i have come to know that when the human body experiences deep emotions or trauma, at times these energies can form physical blockages in our bodies, hindering the ability to function well. i have found that asking the Holy Trinity to come, then ask what is going on here, ask Him to remove them, and at a cellular level, these blockages leave. would you be interested in that?”
i sat there and blinked. “HELL yes.”
now, i believe in this stuff. i pray along these lines every morning. but i will always take someone up on this kind of thing.
i sat in a chair and we asked the Holy Spirit to come and guide and direct our time. then she asked Him, “is there any energy in ashley that is contributing to her fatigue?”
there were 8 different things.
EIGHT. she couldnt believe it. eight blockages that had been lodged into my system post-trauma.
they all left. she knew they left. she would say something like “ok, there is confusion when you were 21.” ummmm yes. “blaming when you were 20. deep sadness at 19” and on and on SPOT ON.
when i got home, after thanking Jesus and honestly asking what the heck just happened, i heard Jesus say, “you still need me. dont go doing this on your own. abide. abide. abide.”
yes. deal. “help me abide.”
by this point you are reading this and either going WOOOOOOO JESUS! YOU ARE GOOD I LOVE IT WHEN YOU DO THAT! or you are going what the h, this is wack and cray and i am concerned about this.
i totally understand. and that is ok. right now i am not trying to go all preacher and tell you why healing and the voice of God and spiritual warfare are so alive and active. i am just telling a story and giving God glory. because i tested these spirits, “you know them by their fruit,” and this is solid good revolution radical stuff. it is in different language (more medical) but none-the-less true.
i will say this: we are image bearers. i think that is an agreed upon truth to hold up in many christian circles. but taking this a step further, we are little trinities. we are body, soul, and spirit, and like the Holy Trinity, we are meant to be deeply, intimately integrated and connected; body to spirit, spirit to soul, soul to body. for many reasons, we compartmentalize. we experience immense heartache and sadness and at a cellular level our bodies are deeply affected. we experience stress and dont rest and we break out, cant sleep, the list is long. we experience joy and love and our brain chemistry is literally rewired. immense trauma will shut down organ systems. we meet with Jesus and walk with Him and there is restoration of body and soul.
this is not metaphorical, this is how we are designed.
i couldnt believe that my soul heard from my Spiritual Dad that my physical body energy was messed up because of hits on my soul… i mean that is just wild.
yes there is brokenness, sometimes people do not get healed, sometimes there is incomplete and partial and mystery and suffering. i do not get it or understand. i just want to share proof of integration; of how we are meant to live whole and holy, checking in to our emotional well being, bringing trauma in to the light, taking care of our bodies, asking Spirit to guide, comfort, heal, restore, nurture, speak.
i hesitated to write this, but this morning when i was thanking Him again, i heard “write about it.” so right now i want to proclaim God’s goodness. God’s power. His faithfulness and love in this form. because even if there isnt healing, He is still good. but i want to say this specific way He is good. He can do stuff like this. He is alive and working and moving in the craziest forms. He binds up the broken hearted and releases the captives,
in a million different ways.